Emotions ?? Feelings ??

 EMOTIONS ?? FEELINGS ??🤔🤔🤔

Okie i dont know what these are .I mean I can't even define what actually these are .   I have realized that words and actions play really very important role here. One word and you are broken forever and one action and you are out of the hell . See.. its complicated right ???? 

Till now i have understood that feelings are something that might be hidden and might take longer time to develop.   And emotions?? Okie they are our reactions. I might be an emotional person because I really have tons of reactions to every situation.  But these easy and complicated emotions always create a complex and mixed feelings . These are like a boundaries for me that sets me apart me from everyone( sometimes making me feel i am friendly but at the same time making me realize that i actually don't fit anywhere. Yess making me realize that i am not one of them or among them ) . These emotions showed how sociable i am and also made myself to look inside myself about how i hide that lonely myself in that corner afraid of these emotions. Fear of losing someone, fear of broken friendship,  fear of hurting someone and ending up hurting myself instead, afraid of being lonely,  and soooo on.  These emotions somewhere made a feeling of guilt.

 But yeah as said time heals everything. I too hope the same with myself recognizing that I am the true myself and that depends on you whether to accept me with my flaws and the true me for whatever i am or not. And thats acceptable for me now 🖤

After going through all these ups and downs of mixed feelings and confusing emotions, I learnt that these actually can be on your hand. Either you wanna show your true side or show what you what them to see.  In these so commercial era, i am learning to hide my true emotions Because if you are true then you sure are taken as an emotionally weak person. Make  sure you are gonna show your emotions that make you a stronger person because not everyone here really cares.  Nobody actually cares how you feel !!

Even my words here are jumbled because i even dont know what emotions am i going through and what am i feeling right now ! And since no one cares i am raising a question to myself : EMOTIONS??? FEELINGS ??

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