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Nature ; My source of Inspiration

 Well, don't you think nature is a great inspiration for all of us?  Let me ask you some other questions as well : How do you feel to see the sunset in the breezing wind? How do you feel about walking down the paths where it is foggy and there are trees around you? How do you feel to see the golden first rays of the sun striking the snow-capped mountains? How do you feel sitting on the lawn and lying down and watching the sky clear and roaming clouds above your head? How do you feel when the drops falling down the streams touch your face slightly and run down through your body? Don't you feel that shiver and cold and those pleasant emotions running through you? Doesn't it feel amazing even to think about it? And every time even if I think about it, I can sense some poetic words stuck in my head. Not once or twice but every time I  get close to nature I have some words going in my head for sure. Sometimes I wonder, how beautiful is it to be a part of nature and how blessed...
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Weakness ???

What came into your mind when i said weakness ?? 🤔🤔 A physically weak person or a person who is weak emotionally or mentally. No, no absolutely not .. i am not talking about emotional weakness because that's enough for now !!  I felt weak today!! With the dizzy head🥴 my hands and legs were shivering ! I felt burden even moving my hands.  I felt that tremendous pain in my chest after the cough 🤒 which was  as loud as the sound of bark of German Shephard dog (says my mom😂)  I was indeed happy somewhere because i could finally be at peace thinking about myself !! Caring about myself !! Caring my own pain !!!  I was indeed happy that I...I was stress free and stressed with the physical pain !! Indeed i learned self love .  Weakness?? Aaaa aaaa !!! I am strong enough, strong enought that i even don't know where i will bump my head in dizziness and get a lump on my forehead !! 
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WHAT IF YOU NEVER EXIST ?

 Sometimes when alone, i wonder , I actually wonder what if you never exist.  If you had never existed, my whole childhood would have been a mesmerizing journey .  I still remember how you grabbed my hands on a sudden in a public bus . I still remember  how those rough hands went through my small thighs and how cold wind passed through my spine .  I wish  i could know that it was wrong at that moment and i could say no and give you a big slap at that moment. If you had never existed, I would have never been afraid to share a seat with a guy on public vehicle, i would have never been scared of hugging my cousing brothers, i would have never been afraid of my male friends.  Thats why i wonder , what if you never exist ? I wonder if you had never existed,  a lonely attention and care seeking personality would had never developed in me which has always been hiding behind these earful of smile and laugh. You gave me the biggest scar of my life, making...
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Emotions ?? Feelings ??

 EMOTIONS ?? FEELINGS ??🤔🤔🤔 Okie i dont know what these are .I mean I can't even define what actually these are .   I have realized that words and actions play really very important role here. One word and you are broken forever and one action and you are out of the hell . See.. its complicated right ????  Till now i have understood that feelings are something that might be hidden and might take longer time to develop.   And emotions?? Okie they are our reactions. I might be an emotional person because I really have tons of reactions to every situation.  But these easy and complicated emotions always create a complex and mixed feelings . These are like a boundaries for me that sets me apart me from everyone( sometimes making me feel i am friendly but at the same time making me realize that i actually don't fit anywhere. Yess making me realize that i am not one of them or among them ) . These emotions showed how sociable i am and also made myself to ...
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Memorable 1st day ❤

 After having a sound sleep, i woke up with the knock at the door. " Ma'am tea ! " a sweet voice of a child could be heard from outside. I opened the door and the cold wind entered into the room. That child was the relative of our landlord.  Other girls and boys too woke up and then we had tea together. Due to the tiring journey we had not been able to clean up the mess and manage our room yet . So we started cleaning the rooms of both boys and girls and also started to clean the field infront of our house(to rest under sun and work as well). It was my first ever experience of going with friends and living with them for so long that too in such a beautiful place. After cleaning, we started to play badminton turnwise. It was so much fun . Then we had our daal-bhat cooked by our landlady and it was so yummm. Beyond the fun, we had to do our work as well. So for the very first day we decided to explore. We got dressed up and then went to ward office, school(nearby) a...
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Journey begins....

 I have never seen the bullet train ( ok except in television) but i could feel my heart pounding as fast as that. That lazy girl who would wake up  at 6 am yawning, today woke up at 5 am . The whole night was sleepless because I was too much excited for it. My mom was shocked to see me as an early bird that day and me, I was in my own world of imagination. Then i got dressed up and packed my remaining belongings and went to the college with the view of freezy dawn outside.  After everyone gathered, we packed the belongings to the bus and then started our journey. Though i was feeling a bit weird for going without the family but i was too much excited as well. We went through the crowded city, dusty roads, dense forest of Shivapuri National Park, streams falling, cold foundation water of the stream and the snow capped mountain range.  After bumping my head and back for hundred of times, we reached our first destination Rautbesi.  The team had to seperate and dep...
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30 days of Nostalgia - Ouch and wow

 "Ooouchh" the first word that came of my mouth in the early morning. Chilling wind and open window symbolized the beautiful cold morning. With the pain of the whole journey, i went to balcony and "wow" . I could hear the blow of wind, flow of the river and the chirps of the early birds.  We were staying at the home in Rautbesi where our friends of another group were going to stay for the coming 30 days. And after having a hot tea in that freezing cold morning, we started the second day of exploration.  The bump on back and head begins and even to the extreme but somehow pain didn't matter at all. The hiding sun behind the cloud, streams on our way and the song of our childhood  days made us forget the pain and cold. After two hours of the journey we reached the third destination Betini,  where me and my group were going to stay. And the reaction when we reached there was,"Oh my God ! this is just amazing" as we could see the clouds floating below us ...
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