Words to Express ❤

 Sometimes when alone, i wonder , I actually wonder what if you never exist.  If you had never existed, my whole childhood would have been a mesmerizing journey .  I still remember how you grabbed my hands on a sudden in a public bus . I still remember  how those rough hands went through my small thighs and how cold wind passed through my spine .  I wish  i could know that it was wrong at that moment and i could say no and give you a big slap at that moment. If you had never existed, I would have never been afraid to share a seat with a guy on public vehicle, i would have never been scared of hugging my cousing brothers, i would have never been afraid of my male friends.  Thats why i wonder , what if you never exist ? I wonder if you had never existed,  a lonely attention and care seeking personality would had never developed in me which has always been hiding behind these earful of smile and laugh. You gave me the biggest scar of my life, making...

 EMOTIONS ?? FEELINGS ??🤔🤔🤔 Okie i dont know what these are .I mean I can't even define what actually these are .   I have realized that words and actions play really very important role here. One word and you are broken forever and one action and you are out of the hell . See.. its complicated right ????  Till now i have understood that feelings are something that might be hidden and might take longer time to develop.   And emotions?? Okie they are our reactions. I might be an emotional person because I really have tons of reactions to every situation.  But these easy and complicated emotions always create a complex and mixed feelings . These are like a boundaries for me that sets me apart me from everyone( sometimes making me feel i am friendly but at the same time making me realize that i actually don't fit anywhere. Yess making me realize that i am not one of them or among them ) . These emotions showed how sociable i am and also made myself to ...